My semester ends in 3 weeks. I still have sooo much catching up to do. I’m stressed out right now. Bloated. Still feeling like someone hit me over the head with a crock pock (damn you SAD diet). And I’m just really angry with the world right now. LOL. That sounds so silly, but seriously. 

I was watching some youtube videos the other day and reading a couple blogs, flipping through a few magazines. I was just really overwhelmed and tired of hearing the same thing over and over again. Mostly shocked though. Some of those documentaries were a real eye opener.

I guess what really has me riled up is the reliance of conventional knowledge in this community. I’m sick of this “moderation” and peer pressure “just one piece isn’t going to kill you” or “way to be a food nazi, quit over analyzing every bite you eat” bullshit. That bowl of “heart healthy” cheerios you’re eating with your ultra-pasteurized skim milk fortified with synthetic vitamins and Bavarian growth hormone, with conventionally grown pesticide and radiation infused strawberries that you think are chock full of nutrients but in reality barely contain any? NO IT’S NOT HEALTHY. ”Cereal and milk with fruit” is no longer cereal, milk, and fruit. What you’re consuming is not real food. When you consume non-real food 5-6 times a day, on top of “treating yourself” to a slice of cheesecake because “it won’t kill you” is the biggest load of horse shit. All of those toxins from the crap you shove in your mouth accumulate in your body, and eventually you will get sick. No one got diabetes overnight. No one got obese overnight. No one got a heart disease over night. All of these diseases are caused by what we eat. So when you’re talking about moderation, “oh I had a healthy BF so I’m going to have half a donut. Oh I had a healthy lunch, so I’m going to have a handful of chips instead of the entire bag. Oh I had a healthy dinner so I’m going to have a small brownie. Afterall, it’s all about moderation! You’re shoving toxins in your mouth for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. You’re bringing yourself closer to diabetes, to heart disease, to cancer. Eating crap is like getting a parking ticket. It’s only a minimal fine that you get, and you easily forget about it once you shove it in your glove box. But eventually the interest piles up. A few months to a year down the road that $10.00 parking ticket turns into a $70.00 parking ticket with additional fines. A year later it turns into a court order to toe your car. Something so small may not seem like it has consequences, but 5.. 10… 15 years from now you’ll be paying for them. Imagine how much junk food you ate over the last two weeks. Imagine each of that costing $10.00. Ate junk food 10 times? That’s $100.00… the interest accumulates to $700.00. And that’s only for 2 weeks! Imagine how much junk you’ve been eating for the past month or two or 6 or yearsss. FUCK MODERATION. That’s conventional commercial marketing to keep you hooked on the same crap you’ve been eating. It is known that people who quit soda easily relapse if they allow themselves to have just ONE. They relapse completely and their cravings return. They would have been better off never having that one soda in the first place. If you constantly re-enforce your cravings through “moderation” you will always always always continue eating the same crap. Fuck your moderation. Fuck your peer pressure. Fuck your reblogs posting some conventional knowledge bullshit and further misinforming everyone else. And most of all, fuck these government agencies. They don’t give two shits about your health. All they want is to keep people MODERATELY sick so that they can continue making money. Afterall, no sickness=no money.These agencies publishing biased, altered and tainted studies to conclude what they want them conclude. The other day I came across a study where people eating cake for BF lost more weight than people eating eggs. There is absolutely no science backing it up. And the results or objective does not support their conclusions. I watched another documentary on TED about how companies screwed with their trials, omit “bad” data that goes against their goals, make the comparisons unfair to make their biased group perform better or look better (for example: make the vegetarian group eat HQ food, while making the meat eating group eat low quality food such as hamburgers and hot dogs as their meat source instead of grass fed beef and chicken, etc), and some of these studies just make up conclusions that don’t make sense when you look at the data. And majority of the public don’t know how to read these studies, so when the media publishes this stuff the headline is usually the conclusion and that’s how people are misled. It makes me mad because I blindly believed that garbage as well at some point, before digging into the details of each study myself. Information can be sooo easily manipulated. And it’s crazy how things are escalating. There’s nothing wrong with over analyzing and inspecting your food under a magnifying glass if it means living a longer and higher quality life. NOT having that slice of cheesecake isn’t going to kill me, but having? It just might! Our society is so bogged up on having a food reward system. Instead of cooking real food at home, we rely on convenience, on fast food, and ingredients that come in a box or plastic bag. And then we perceive these foods as “healthy” because “the government told us so and the media told us so” so we splurge on something not-so-healthy. It’s like… Americans can’t go a day without some kind of food reward. AMericans HAVE TO HAVE their dessert. Or HAVE TO HAVE some sort of junk food every single day. WHYYY? Just 100 years ago eating pizza was a once-a-week ritual for families. Going out for ice cream only happened once in a blue moon, and most likely only in the summertime. Why do you absolutely HAVE TO HAVE that slice of pizza? Or that ice cream? Or that brownie? Or those chips? Or that Luna Bar? Or that diet coke? It’s not real food. And it’s slowly making you sick. From the genetically modified corn syrup, to the irradiated fruit devoid of any nutrients (although the nutrition label says otherwise—BULLSHIT), to canola oil, and hydrogenated vegetable oils, and other additives and preservatives. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT THE HECK YOU’RE PUTTING INTO YOUR BODY? And it’s not like it happens once in a blue moon. You’re ingesting this stuff every single day, multiple times a day. It’s disgusting. The conventional media makes you believe that the person not eating this stuff on a regular basis is INSANE. They make you believe that the person who thinks this stuff is unhealthy is INSANE. Whoever doesn’t believe that “double fiber whole wheat whole grain Sarah Lee bread is heart healthy” and “multi grain extra fiber cereal is heart healthy with low-fat pasteurized ‘milk’ ” is INSANE. When in reality, you’re the insane one for choosing to put that shit in your bodies every single day. I’m sick of it. I’m tired of feeling like a naive little sheep following the conventional knowledge bandwagon. Instead of believing everything is healthy for you in moderation, the smartest thing you can do is put everything you eat underneath a microscope. You might be surprised at what you will find. Otherwise ignorance is bliss…. until you end up with cancer or heart disease and think back on your life and wonder, “how the heck… I’ve eaten healthy all my life… sara lee whole grain bread and double fiber cheerios with low-fat dairy products.” No thank you. 

So yeah, I think I’ve reached a new point where I need to rethink my prospects. I need to figure out where my stance is with industrial food and things like that. I can’t be much help to someone if they come to me for advice and one day I say “oh no that’s fine moderation balh blah blah” and the next I say “no never eat that”. 

After two weeks of eating Paleo and then going back to a Standard American Diet (SAD) for a few days has seriously shown me a world of difference in the way I feel. I felt great on paleo. I let myself have some carby sweet. And then all my carb cravings came rushing back as I continued with the “moderation” guideline. And now I feel like crap. Literally, utter crap. Like I’ve mentioned twice over the past few days, it literally feels like someone hit me over the head with a crock pot. My head is in a fog. My entire body feels week. I’ve had a sore throat for the past few days. No energy. Horrible mood. Kind of sad and emotional. Appetite out of control. I’m not alert at all and barely being able to concentrate. I keep procrastinating. And my body bloated so much. Like literally 3 days ago my jeans were super baggy. Then yesterday they were tight as if I was 20lbs heavier. My hands were puffy, my face was puffy. It was gross. 

I feel like this moderation thing is a way for people to justify their terrible food choices. “Oh ice cream is unhealthy…. but in moderation it’s totally okay!” I’m not saying to never ever ever eat ice cream ever again. But these food rewards are too much of a regular thing in most people’s lives. The toxins in these foods build up in our bodies. And then we get sick and develop diseases. We don’t let stains and plaque build up on our teeth from only moderate brushing. We brush them and floss and take care of them every single day in order to prevent them from getting cavities and from rotting. Why should we treat out bodies any differently? Why should we NOT take preventative actions from deteriorating health? Why should we allow moderation to destroy our bodies overtime? 

My outlook on food has changed so much over the past few days. Even more so that is had a few weeks ago. I’m not some nazi about all of this. In my mind it makes sense.. I don’t even think about it. But I’m just tired of the bullshit. Especially the bullshit on here. If I have to read one more “your body doesn’t burn the food you just ate at night time” I will seriously bang my head against a wall. 

Anyway, I need to figure out where I stand. And I need to focus on my studies. I’m falling behind on my homework because my focus has been on all of this nutrition stuff (can’t help it, I find it fascinating!). But I don’t want to pay those consequences. I definitely need to clear my head. I need to focus on my priorities and get back on track with my course work. It’s easy. Like I’m working on some calculus right now and it’s a piece of cake. It just takes time. Lots and lots of time to teach myself the material, do the homework for the section, and then take the quizzes and test for the section. 

I most likely will set up a queue. Maybe. I might pop in and out periodically. But until then, expect very very very little updates from me (if any) until about August 16th-ish. That’s my last final for this semester. 

Until then, toodles~